What I am sad about today....
Seriously, if you are a military (especially Army) wife, don't read this! We have little empathy for each other because we're always caught up in whose spouse has been gone the longest or how many previous times they have been deployed, or what events (births, anniversaries, birthdays, holidays, funerals) were missed,etc. No matter what, someone always has it harder than you and I realize that.
So here is the egotistical part of me that will probably drive you other Army wives nuts.
I was actually sad doing laundry. Well, that probably makes a lot of people sad because they don't like doing it, but I was putting away Keith's clothes. It was just kind of weird still doing his laundry when he is not going to be wearing this whole closet shoved full of clothes anytime soon. It just gave me a pause.
The first morning he was gone, the jar that holds our toothbrushes stopped me in my tracks. There is only one lonely, purple toothbrush in it now. The blue one disappeared. I really thought he would buy a new toothbrush to take with him and leave his old one here. I might have to send him a new one.
This morning I actually had to iron my own clothes for church..grrr... It is not my thing, but Keith loves to do it. I even bought him a new ironing board upon moving here! I haven't ironed anything in quite some time...months, maybe even a year. He also likes to sweep the floors...they are dirty right now. (sigh)
When Keith is here, I sleep soundly, when he is not the slightest noise will wake me and my mind goes wild with what caused the sound. 2 nights ago I straight up in bed because I was positive I heard someone turn on a lightswitch in the living room. And the turning on of a lightswitch doesn't make a big sound. I layed in bed for 30 minutes trying to convince myself that I am crazy and need to go back to sleep.
I know all this stuff works out over time(give me 2-3 weeks). I know it does because I have done it before. So go ahead, I know you want to say it. I can take it!
Suck it up, get over it, dry it up, put on your big girl panties and move on!!!
So here is the egotistical part of me that will probably drive you other Army wives nuts.
I was actually sad doing laundry. Well, that probably makes a lot of people sad because they don't like doing it, but I was putting away Keith's clothes. It was just kind of weird still doing his laundry when he is not going to be wearing this whole closet shoved full of clothes anytime soon. It just gave me a pause.
The first morning he was gone, the jar that holds our toothbrushes stopped me in my tracks. There is only one lonely, purple toothbrush in it now. The blue one disappeared. I really thought he would buy a new toothbrush to take with him and leave his old one here. I might have to send him a new one.
This morning I actually had to iron my own clothes for church..grrr... It is not my thing, but Keith loves to do it. I even bought him a new ironing board upon moving here! I haven't ironed anything in quite some time...months, maybe even a year. He also likes to sweep the floors...they are dirty right now. (sigh)
When Keith is here, I sleep soundly, when he is not the slightest noise will wake me and my mind goes wild with what caused the sound. 2 nights ago I straight up in bed because I was positive I heard someone turn on a lightswitch in the living room. And the turning on of a lightswitch doesn't make a big sound. I layed in bed for 30 minutes trying to convince myself that I am crazy and need to go back to sleep.
I know all this stuff works out over time(give me 2-3 weeks). I know it does because I have done it before. So go ahead, I know you want to say it. I can take it!
Suck it up, get over it, dry it up, put on your big girl panties and move on!!!
posted by Paige Tyler at
Sunday, July 06, 2008
3 Comments:
Well your still my little girl! I know it made me cry at church yesterday singing the Star Spangled Banner, just thinking of him. I do understand the sleeping part and being so sure you heard something that just is not there! Your comfort zone is all out of wack and your Best Friend is not there to help make life easier. Make sure he knows how much you Miss him and need him in your life! He's a Great guy. Mom
I can not even imagine what you are going through. You have my total respect and admiration. I hope the time goes by quickly for you.
Why, oh why, shouldn't your little girl cry? I cried buckets. God bless and keep you all.
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